Friday, September 14, 2007

In for the Long Haul (09-11-07)

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After such an ugly day yesterday... today has been much nicer. The doctor and nurse visits began at 5am with meds... In total I've seen 3 different doctors today - including 2 visits from my peri, and 8 or 9 nuses. IT seems that it's been over a month since they've had a triplet pg in to stay, so all of the nuses have come in to see us and comment on wanting to be on the neonatal team for the piggies... It's definitely been amusing!!!

My peri and Dr. Leo (my 2 favorite doctor's here!!!) both said they'd prefer to keep me here, for the just in case... We live an hour away - with no traffic - and they just don't feel comfortable having me go home at this point. Plus here they can monitor pain along with babies... Right now I'm in the High Risk L&D, but should be moving to a "normal" L&D room in the next few days.

Two of the nurses were so intrigued by the SPD that they somehow managed to get hold of quasi hip belts" in order to imobilize my pelvic bones as much as possible. I use the plural b/c one belt didn't reach all the way around me... they needed that second belt!!! I don't know who they bribedto get them, but they got them... It's helped a little... not a whole lot, but a little. Which is MUCH better than nothing!!! Which is what Tylenol was doing.

They're doing another 24 hr urine collection... there was some protein in my urine yesterday which the peri didn't like, so... another collection. This time tohugh I have a bedside commode... all sorts of fun... really... it is...

I know I'm forgetting a bunch of stuff... I always do. For now though... this is the big stuff!!!

Trip to L&D (9-10-07)

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Today has been an insane day. Apparently it is SPD making me want to cry from how much it hurts (Denise & Cathy, I don't even know how you live with this). I also got my first "internal" - sans wand. OMG. That hurt in a way that I couldn't have imagined...

After spending quite some time in the temporary "holding pen" - which was where I had the internal... I was transferred over to the high risk L&D unit. This experience has been quite different from the last time... I guess I'm in pain this time!!! Tonights nurse was pretty pissy with me about having to rest on my left side. At one point dhe wanted to check my reflexes - I was half on my side, but not completely - and she grabbed one leg hit the knee and bent up ankle up... she didn't stop when I sried out in pain. Then chick grabs my other leg and does the same... at that point I just screamed. It hurt SO MUCH...

DH has been here with me, and after an hour and a half of hiding my tears I just couldnt' hide them anymore, so he helped me get up to go to the bathroom, then wouldn't let me lay down my my side. When nurse came in with my 11pm meds she saw the tear tracks and asked if I was ok and why was I not on my side... I just about started crying... She asked what my pain level was and I said it was at a 10. Luis looked at her and said that if I'm crying... it's past a 10. After watching me trying to move around for all of 10 seconds - half - in tears I think she got the point.

The doctor who saw me today - who did the internal - says that Im 100% effaced and 1cm dialted which I know means nothing... theoretically.

So, I'm here definitely overnight. Possibly longer... not really sure about that yet. DH is about ready to ask the peri to keep us in until piggies are here... so, who knoes...

Sunday, September 9, 2007

What a painful day... (30wks today)

Today was such a physically painful day. Apparently my pelvis is beginning to spread and that does NOT feel good. I was crying from how much it hurts to move... if I could stay on the couch all day... great, but I have to get up to pee!!!

I know I told these piggies to throw everything they could at me if it meant that they'd stay put until 36 or 37 wks, and WOW... theyve kept their promise!!! I'm trying really hard to not complain but I can't move without hurting something awful, but letting tears flow, which is NOT like me at all. Normally I can tolerate physical pain with little to no emotion. But this... this is different.

So far I've kept up my end of the bargain I made with the piggies many months ago. They've thrown everything possible at me, and I've taken it. I've taken it like their mom, and I have done it with a smile. A few tears, but that's been the least of it- I think. I love these piggies... I'll take all of this... I just hope they can hang on for 6 or 7 more wks.

36.5 wks... minimum... that's what I'm hoping. That's what I'm praying for. That's what I believe.

29wk2day - Cervix unchanged!!!

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Yay!!!

I saw yet another doctor from the practice... he was very nice, and VERY careful!!! It's insane to see the weight my peri carries in that office!!! As of this morning, cervix was unchanged from last week... same measurements as the wk b4 which they say is a good sign!!! Doctor checked out the piggies and saif that each has plenty of fluid around them... another good sign!!!

The sharp (surface) lower belly pains I was having he said are either the piggies stretching out some more and/or where more PUPPS "bumps" are showing up.

All in all though... piggies are doing well!!!

It's appts like today that make me think that we really will make it to 36 or 37 weeks!!!

Thx so much for all the P&PT!!! We are loving them all!!!

28wk2d

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Peri appt this morning was good... we got the tech that I love!!!

My cervix has thinned some, but not more that what was expected. It's now at 1.25 - down from 1.55 last wk. Again, there's always that margin of error.

The appt today was more intense than the last few only b/c since the piggies ARE growing... they're running out of space. They're worried about ctx and discharge and all that sort of fun stuff. I've had some localized discomfort/tightness, but it's always up by Elly's head... she's sitting on top of Gracie, and is pushing on my ribs to get some leverage in order to stretch out some skin...

Next wk is another cervix check, then the wk after it's another growth scan which I like. I' guessing that sometime after that growth scan they'll just put me back in the hospital until piggies are ready to come out... which I'm still hoping won't bu until mid to late October.

For now I'm home... back on the couch!!!

27wks2day - Growth Scan

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Peri appt today was good... He spent a lot of time in the room with us while the tech was measuring each baby, which he hadn't really done before - he'd always come in to check on us, but hadn't stayed for the actual measuring before.

Anyway, my cervix has thinned a little - from 1.8/2.0 to 1.6. The peri isn't too concerned with it... he says that he likes the slow rate that it's going. I'm still on full bedrest, which is all sorts of fun...

All the piggies are measuring in the 30th plus perventile, which he says is good for trips...Luisito is weighing approx 1lb 15ozGracies is at approx 1lb 14oz andElly is at approx 1lb 15oz.

We're almost at 6 lbs of baby!!! Another 12 lbs of baby to go!!! (That's my goal!!!)

Overall... we're ok!!! Another week at home is a good thing!!!

Thanks so much for the continuing P&PT!!!

26wks2day

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Today's appt was a standard cervix check.

Now, my head know's that its nothing more than the (human) margin of error... but... 2wks ago cervix measured 2.3 - which was enough to admit me to the hospital for piggie steroids and monitoring. Last wk it was 1.8 - which the doctor was happy with, but I was a little disappointed. Today it was...................................... 2.0!!! Now, my head knows that it's a physical impossibility to have your cervix thicken once it's started thinning out, and that this is just all within the normal margin of error, BUT it means that my cervix hasn't changed at all!!!

Piggies are staying put for the time being!!! Bedrest might be killing me slowly, but it's doing good things for the piggies!!!

Thank you so much for all the continuing GL vibes!!! We need them more than ever!!!

25wk2day - Almost Status Quo... Almost

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Today was interesting. After a rough start for DH - and him getting angry with me for him being late - we got to our appt late. They (obviously) took us in late, but we did spend some time with our peri today.

On July 19th (Thursday) my cervix was at 3.5. On the 31st it was 2.4 - twelve days to thin out a fair amt. Today (seven days later) it was at 1.8.

The peri was happy with the bed rest I was sticking to which showed in how little my cervix thinned (in his eyes). I'm worried, and I know that he's concerned but he's optimistic for us.

So, I'm still on full bedrest... I'm worried, but doctor is okay with the progression...

Just trying to keep these babies in for another few wks!!! Okay... *at least* 8 moew wks!!!

ETA: From last wk Tuesday to today I've lost 9lbs... So I'm down even more in weight gain...

Back home from Hospital

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I was discharged from the hospital this afternoon, which is great!!! I was discharged with orders of strict bedrest. I get bathroom privileges and "shower at leisure" (mostly b/c my doctor knows we have a shower seat in there for me.)

I was sent home with a Rx for Nifedopine (sp) - precordia - to help control my bp and the ctx that keep happening without me feeling them.

The peri came to see me a few times yesterday and today. It was almost amusing, b/c our peri is the director of women's health at the hospital which is a top hospital in SoCal for at risk pg, high order multiples, and much more. Every time a new doctor, resident, 4th year med student, or nurse came in to see us it was an introduction of their name *quickly* followed by, "I work with Dr. N." This is the first time I've ever been admitted to a hospital as an in patient... so I don't know if it's normal to have 3 or 4 different doctors come and see me between the hours of 6am and 9:30am. Except for last night's nurse, the rest of the nurses were fantastic. They were attentive - even admist the 5 births that happened in the 2pm hour yesterday afternoon... It was absolutely insane on that floor!!! all around me women were going into labor!!!

Basically, my peri says that so long as I follow bed rest orders, and continue with meds - diligently - then he has every reason to believe that the piggies will stay put for a whole longer. We're hoping for 10-12 wks longer, but it all depends on how much I follow orders. We're still seeing him once a week, and he wants tus to schedule appt on days that he's specifically there to see us. He also asked that if for ANY reason I'm worried about something Im feeling or not feeling that I'm to call in or show up first thing in the am - that no one would see me as a crazy paranoid mom.

It definitely feels great to be home, considering that we were admitted straight from an appt so didnt have a chance to come home to prepare a bag (DH did that after we'd seen a few doctors/nurses on Tuesday). What's tough is looking around, seeing everything that needs to be done, and knowing that I can't actually get up and do it.

Oh!!! Also, this weekend were borrowing a recliner from DHs uncle. DH is rearranging furniture today and tomorrow to be able to bring it in on Saturday. Well be taking it to the baby shower in a few wks also. We debated canceling it all together, but we have so many people coming to see us, including a bunch of family and friends from out of state who already have their flights. So, we're taking the bed rest with me... should be interesting in the middle of a restaurant!!!

For now, I think this about covers the excitement of our day. I do have to say though... benedryl straight into an IV is SOOO much nicer than in a pill!!! It takes effect so much faster through an IV!!! And... I hate having the hiccups. I've had them off and on since 8am today. It's already 6pm!!!

24 Weeks - a milestone!!!

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Today is a major milestone for DH and me!!! I know this sounds morbid, but I can't help it.

At 24 wks is when doctors in the US (not sure about Canada) will perfrom life-saving measures on babies born prematurely. At 21 wks is when the baby(s) is considered to be a "human" (if they're born that early - they'll receive a death certificate) but doctors won't perfrom lifesaving measures.

Anyway, 24wks is a major thing for us!!! I'm so excited!!!

24wk2d - Hospital stay

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So, we went in for our weekly appt this morning. Piggies look fabulous.

What didn't look so hot was my cervix. Last wk is was at 3.5, and today it was at 2.4. B/c its so many piggies the peri wanted to send us to the hospital for a shot today and another in 24hrs of betamethasone. The Peri was worried that it was a sign of premature labor, so off to the hospital we went... the peri's nurse wheeled me over to L&D, and half an hour later we were admitted.

As luck would have it... Ive been having silent contractions. Fun stuff, right??? So, In a 4 hr time span I got 2 shots of terbutiline, and oral doses of beta-something or other every 6 hours.

Once we got to the hospital the nurses were in warp speed, which was weird to see, b/c they wouldn't give me complete information, just bits and pieces. I saw 3 different doctors throughout the day all of whom told me that since I wasn't feeling the contractions, then they weren't at all worried that the babies would be here any time soon. Dr. Leo (he came by a few times) wais that he'd had patients take it up through 37 wks and were okay... so, I'm hanging on to that.

From what I can see on the monitor, it looks like the contractions have calmed down, which is good. This does mean that I'm onstrict bed rest as of this morning. At home I can get up to pee, and sit up to eat... no more cooking (even my 15-20 minutes meals), and no more anything else.

We're going ahead with the shower, but we're renting a wheelchair for me to sit in throughout the event.

Overall I feel fine, which is flipping out the nurses even more, but if I'm not feeling them... I'm not going to lie.

Anyway, I'm in the hospital until at least Thursday, so this should be all sorts of exciting.

Visit to Turner (23wk5day)

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I went to see my GP b/c of this rash... The peri is too far away for me to drive by myself, plus I LOVE my GP.

He says it looks like hives, not sure what I'm allergic to since I haven't really changed anything... He was shocked at what I look like... swollen, red, white (and red) patches, all fun stuff.

He told me to add Zantac to my daily regime, and try using any lotion other than cortizine (I got Sarna Ultra from my pharmacy!!!)

While writing this I realized that the one diet change* I've had this week is adding Sunny D. DH brought it home for me, and I didn't think twice about it. I used to drink this stuff non-stop as a kid, but haven't had it in YRS. I just poured out the last of the Sunny-D (DH doesnt like it). I dont' know if that could be it or what, but... I won't miss it!!!

Anyway, I called my peri to fill him in on what was going on, and he's cool with the Zantac, and suggested Claritin instead of Benedryl if I wanted. Other than that... not much I can do!!!

23wks1d

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Today was our 23 wk appt which was a second anatomy/growth check, and a heart echo for each baby.

Everyone has grown at the same rate as a singleton... Baby Elly is still a little smaller than her siblings - she measuers a few days behind, but the peri isn't worried about that. He says it's normal for this to happen with trips. He's just surprised that they don't all measure smaller...

Heart echos are looking good as well. Evryone has their 4 chambers, with blood flowing in and out appripriately. Given DHs CHD the peri says that it doesnt look like there are any structural issues as of right now which means that a)it could still show up, b)any damage there would likely be of negligible problems for the piggies, or c) they're perfect in every way and won't have to worry about it. Of course, we're hoping for option c but have to be prepared for anything.I'm on

"unofficial bedrest" which the peri said meant that I could spend very little time on my feet. He wants me reclined or floating in a pool for the majority of the day. My cervix is still at a 3.5 for thickness which he says is excellent.

He did start back with some of his doom and gloom. I think he's trying to prepare us for anything. He wants to get us to at least 32 wks, and b/c I'm so short he thinks that this will be tough. I'm still hoping for 36-38 wks.

I'm a little torn with today's appt, but was so happy to see the piggies looking so big and healthy... I just hope we can get them through most of the 3T!!!

Luis felt the piggies!!!

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On Saturday night (July 21st) DH felt the Baby Elly kicking me, then a few minutes later he felt Elly and Gracie kicking each other!!!

He was SO excited!!! As am I!!!

22wk4day

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Appt was good!!! Piggies are getting really big, and they're moving all around!!!

We have another appt Monday morning... this is another big one. It's a heart echo for each piggy. DH's CHD is a major facor for us. It terrifies me, and the doctor is taking extra precautions (on top of them being trips) b/c of DHs heart problems.

Otherwise though, piggies are doing well!!!

18wk2day

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I'm finally back... it's crazy hot outside... or maybe that's just the pg hormones...

The u/s was nice and long... A and B are measuring right on target... C is measuring a little smaller, but C is squished up against my ribs. The doctor wsas happy with them, so I'm okay with that!!! The tech asked if anyone in my family was short (by average standards)... I laughed so hard I almost peed myself!!! I'm 5'2" (5'3" according to some doctors) and I'm considered relatively tall!!! The tech laughed and was happy with C's size after that. All of the bone measurements, belly, head, etc... were right on for all three, and the tech checked gender and was positive with what she saw...

I've only gained another 4 lbs... not the 14 the doctor wanted by today, which could also explain why C is a little smaller... Either way though, the doctor said C is "petite" but still well within normal range. Basically, they're all still growing at the rate oof singletons...

B/P was suprisingly low, which makes me happy. My cervix is shut tight... enough that the doc was more than a little surprised. We go back in 2 wks for another check up on the piggies, and then 2 wks after that to to a thorough check of their hearts.

Our triplets are: Boy * Girl * Girl

My dad started crying whrn I told him there was a boy... considering that he didn't believe me at first!!! My MIL started crying when she heard there was at least one girl!!!

In exchange for telling our families today Luis gave in to the boy name I want, and I agreed to a girl name he likes for the other girl name I want!

A: Luis Rafael - Luis' first name, and my dad's first name. This is the only boy in the current generation, and the only boy with my dad's direct bloodline... I've only got sisters, and 5 nieces...

B: Graciela Caridad - Graciela is my mentor's name (adopted g'ma) and Caridad is my MIL's middle name...

C: Serafina Isabel - my g'ma's name (also a branch of the archangels... and this little girl is a fighter!) and my name in Spanish (which was suppsed to be my name, but my dad changed it at the last minute to the English form. Plus the youngest girl in the family (going back 6 generations and in each branch of my g'father's family) the youngest girl is named Isabel.

Nicknames will be: Luisito (although Luis wants to call him Pobrecito since he's the ONLY boy of 8 g'kids, and MANY girl cousins!!!); Gracie; and either Sera or Fina... Luis hates the nickname Fina, and I'm not so keen on the nickname Sera (in Spanish especially) if it isn't pronounced correctly. In Spanish if it's pronounced like Sara... I'll call her something else. I'm my head though she's still Baby Elly, which fits since her name is Isabel!!!

Overall, everyone and everything is looking great!!!

15wk2day

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We had a Week 15 appt with our peri yesterday. it was relatively short and sweet... good b/c babies are doing well, almost annoying (to DH) b/c it's a 45 minute drive just to get there, and 45-60 minutes back!!! DH will just have to suck it up though!!!

All 3 piggies are measuring about 45 inches... still individually on track with a singleton!!! They're stacked 3 high, almost like lincoln logs... A and C have their heads to my right side, and B has his head to my left - had to be different!!! C (Baby Elly) is just barely above my belly button which has started to pop out. not something DH likes!!! He likes playing with my BB - something I HATE even more so after my lap. Well, now he can't... it's going away!!! Anyway!!! Back to the piggies!!! Everyone had a strong heartbeat, and wiggling all around. A had the hiccups again. Poor munchkin!!!

We go back in 3 weeks (on June 18th) for another anatomy check - heart, size, ect. - and will hopefully be able to see genders!!! Family is starting to get pushy about finding out!!! Not that we'll necessarily share with them...

In all, it was a quick, maybe 10 minute appt, but we got to see the piggies which was great. I keep having these insane fears for the week leading up to my appts, so seeing them definitely helps make life a little calmer for me!!!

12wks2days

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Today's appt was long, but so fun!!!

It was our NT scan, and their measurements were: Alpha- 1.2, Beta- 1.2, and Elly 1.6. basically, we are not at risk for Down's or heart disease!!! Anything above 3.5 is considered "abnormal" and puts the baby at risk. The heart issues were more of a scare to me b/c Luis was born with a hole in his heart (they found it when he was 2 or 3 days old) and he had open hart surgery when he was 2. It's genetic along his mom's side of the family, so that was a MAJOR relief to us!!!

Alpha was such a good piggy!!! He let himself be measured in spite of my non-stop laughing!!! He had the hiccups the whole time, and I found it so amusing!!!

Beta was pretty good. At first he hid from the wand, but once he heard Luis talking he started waving and dancing and sucking his thumb. Luis seriously almost started clapping when he saw Beta do that!!!

Elly was our little stinker for the day!!! She was wiggling all around, jumping... NOT cooperating!!! She kept turning her back on the U/S tech which I found amusing, but the poor tech just kept pressing harder, apparently trying to keep Elly in place!!! Elly fought back though!!! You could see where the wand was pressing in on her, so she was swinging with both fists and kicking at the indentation!!! Luis almost fell out of his chair laughing!!! Seriously... that kid's a fighter!!!

They are all (individually) measuring the same as a singleton. Alpha was 5.73cm, Beta 5.83cm and Elly 5.70cm. HBs were all really strong!!!

The Peri was funny. He was giving us his evaluation of how things are going... including the basic "doom and gloom" of possibilities, but he kept going back to how great they were looking. He's funny b/c he tries to be so stoic, and he really is... very matter of fact, but then he does things that are too sweet, and you see that he's a great doctor. Stuff like putting my leg, rubbing my belly - almost like he's trying to re-connect to each piggy. Honestly it feels like he's trying to keep some distance until the day they're born. But, not in a bad way, kwim???

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Lost

I feel like an absolute failure right now. My piggies are always in danger of preterm birth and that puts them at risk of so many things. I'm on bedrest and can't do anything, much as I want to. It feels like I'm completely cut off from the world. I can't ask people to keep coming over... Im disrputing their lives, and even though I know that some of them might not feel that way... it's how I feel. Then once they're here, what can I do??? they end up have to wait on me anyway, which I hate just as much.

Today is Steve's wedding. Neither one of us could go. B/w cash-flow issues and me being on bedrest... we didn't have much of a choice. I hate that we're missing this though!!! It's Steve. He was our Best Man. I wish...

I just feel like I'm wasting away here... on my own, and I'm afraid of falling into the depression I wa in after the LAP. The Piggies don't need that. They need me to be happy, and I try to be. I really do try, but some days... I just don't... I have a tougher time with it.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

We made it to September

I don't know what the next couple of months hold for us, but we made it to September! The piggies are hanging in tight... they seem to be growing... and so do I! I am wondering about what's' "normal" (which I know is a relative term) and what isn't. The pain in my lower belly that sometimes spreads out... scratching always seems to help it feel better...is it ctx's??? or round ligament pain??? or is it Baby Luis and Baby Gracie making more room for themselves? I have absolutely NO idea!!! And WHY... does that one spot on my butt hurt??? Am I going totally insane??? Did I nap with the remote control or phone under me??? Or did my ever expanding skin flap over and I napped on THAT??? I dont know.

What I do know is that today is September 1st, and for a little bit of time there Dr. Nageotte wasn't sure we'd get this far. I'm thinking October 1st might be a challenge, but definitely doable. November 1st... well... let's see what happens in October!!!