I feel like an absolute failure right now. My piggies are always in danger of preterm birth and that puts them at risk of so many things. I'm on bedrest and can't do anything, much as I want to. It feels like I'm completely cut off from the world. I can't ask people to keep coming over... Im disrputing their lives, and even though I know that some of them might not feel that way... it's how I feel. Then once they're here, what can I do??? they end up have to wait on me anyway, which I hate just as much.
Today is Steve's wedding. Neither one of us could go. B/w cash-flow issues and me being on bedrest... we didn't have much of a choice. I hate that we're missing this though!!! It's Steve. He was our Best Man. I wish...
I just feel like I'm wasting away here... on my own, and I'm afraid of falling into the depression I wa in after the LAP. The Piggies don't need that. They need me to be happy, and I try to be. I really do try, but some days... I just don't... I have a tougher time with it.
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